well today was going so well, i hadnt eaten all day. then i came home and what had my mom made, hot chocolate fudge cake, i just couldnt say no! i only had a small piece though so i am not to angry with myself, another day of fasting tomorrow which i will hopefully complete. i will be better busy tomorrow so i shouldnt get to hungry. just keep drinking bloody water :L
i have got so much course work to do and its all in for friday :O argh!
i am going for a meal on friday night with my friends =/ i will be able to et away with eatin very little because where going for an indian and i always share with someone so that should only leave me with a little bit to eat :) but then i'm going to alton towers sat with my friends, so im going to be with them constantly all day, hopefully cuz there are 8 of us going they wont notice that im not going to eat lol. sat night im staying at my boyfriends but then sunday were going to his cousins christening and i LOVE party food, "/ i will eat as little as i can anyway. i'll just have to see how things go really. but hope for the best with everything. i hate food, i HATE it. every single time i eat something i just think oh crap more fucking calories : and then i get annoyed with my self afterwards so i just try and not eat at all. also cuz if im hungry and have like a little nibble of something it just makes me wont more and more and i ent up binging like a big fat pig. i need to get some laxatives for if ever i do eat alot. well sorry about the messy post, im just really busy laterly with so much school work :@ i will post on sunday night proberly and i will weigh in aswel :)
good luck everyone, love you all who read my blog
elle ♥ i WILL become thin before my birthday [dec]